Countdown to D-Day

Okay so it’s not what you’re thinking. D-Day as in DELIVERY DAY💕

Recently being diagnosed with preeclampsia has moved my induction date up a little and we are now 9 days out. NINE!

Holy cow. Can you say emotional wreck? Nervous, excited, scared, over planning, feeling unprepared, worried about my daughter… the list goes on and on. I know what you’re thinking, “shouldn’t you have had time to prepare yourself for this day?”

Well, yes. You would think that I would have been preparing all along and we have. The nursery is almost complete except for a few things which aren’t necessities, the car seats are installed, the hospital bag is packed (finally) but that doesn’t mean I’m mentally prepared to have and bring home two babies. Surely they wouldn’t let me leave the hospital with two babies because that would be crazy. I have no clue what I’m doing.

Although I feel as though I’m slowly losing my mind, here are a few things that I intend to do to pass the time.

1. Sleep. That’s right. I know it’s not always possible with a 14 month old but I’m lucky enough to have a wonderful support system to help with Reagan anytime I need it. My mom stays with us a lot and she is always helping with not only Reagan but house work and preparation for the boys! My mother in law is also wonderful when it comes to lending a helping hand. She comes straight from work and gets Reagan when I need her to and keeps her until Michael gets home! So sleep/rest is my number one priority as it will most likely be a thing of the past when the boys do arrive.

2. Cleaning. Light cleaning of course. I simply turn on some music and just start. Usually in the kitchen while Reagan eats breakfast and then on to the living room while she runs around and plays. She always does better about playing by herself when I am up moving around and keeping busy but there is a fine line that I have to keep in mind. I don’t want to push myself too much and make things worse so this one isn’t always a sure thing. But wouldn’t it be nice to bring babies home to a spotless house? A girl can hope!

3. Spending time with my daughter! The weather has been nice here for the last day or so and we’ve got to enjoy a nice light walk to the mailbox and to see our puppy. I hope to be able to take her to the park and let her play just us a time or two before the boys arrive!

Nine days. Nine days until they are here with us and our life is completely different. Scary, very scary but oh so exciting.

We all know those last few weeks drag by, so what are your favorite things to do pass the last few weeks of pregnancy? I’m gonna need all the help I can get!

Mommy Group Anyone?

Have you ever been awake in the middle of the night with a crying baby? You are exhausted beyond measure, you can’t remember if you brushed your teeth before you went to bed and it’s possibly been 2 or 3 days since you had a shower that lasted longer than 2 minutes.
These can be some of the loneliest times. Children take constant attention which means that as parents, we have to put ourselves on the back burner for the time being. When I first found out I was pregnant with my first child I just knew that this would open up a whole new lifestyle for me. I was so excited to have a little tiny baby in my arms and couldn’t wait to have my very own best friend for life. Don’t get me wrong, Reagan is so special to me and I love being her mommy but this whole mom thing is lonely. There are times that I feel the loneliest I have ever been. This could easily be for a number of reasons. I have an amazing support system between my hubby, his parents, my mom and my sisters. I even have a few friends that I still see on occasion but none of the above are in my same stage of life. They aren’t waking up every night with a crying baby (except my hubby because he is awesome) nor do they spend all day with a 13 month old who refuses to use words although she knows many.
I am here. This is my life right now and I love it. I know it is simply a season and I will one day soon look back and miss all these firsts but that doesn’t change the fact that I long for someone who knows EXACTLY what I am going through. I think that it is extremely important to have friendships with other young moms who can truly say, “I know exactly how you feel” and give advise or simply an encouraging word to help you to realize that YOU ARE NOT ALONE!
Many times as moms we like to act as if we have everything under control and we are that perfect house wife and mother but let me tell you… I am NOT that mom!
My house is always a mess. I clean one room and walk to the next and the first room is being destroyed all over again. My car has fast food trash in it. My child probably had a whole bag of goldfish for breakfast, and I don’t get to shower and fix my make up every day. I am not afraid to admit that I struggle from time to time. That is what makes me human but these are all reasons that I need a mommy group. Support, friendship, judgement free listening ears, someone to simply tell me that I am worthy of this job that has been entrusted to me.
If you find yourself needing a friend on this crazy rollercoaster ride of motherhood, please find me! Email, call, text, facebook… ANYTHING! Chances are, I need you too!

Although I am about to add to my chaos with the arrival of our twins within the next few weeks, I feel that I am being called to put together a small group of moms who simply need support. If you have everything under control or if you find that you are that mom struggling from postpartum depression then I want you to reach out to me for more information. We all need each other no matter the differences that may lie between us!

I hope you will take an interest in this group and find that you are not in fact alone. I can’t wait to hear from you!

5 Crucial Items to Pack in Your Hospital Bag

First off, let me start by saying that I am currently putting off packing my bag for the twins arrival because I am a creature of habit and I usually wear the same hand full of clothes over and over and I really, really don’t want to be living out of a bag for the next couple of weeks. But when I do finally bite the bullet and pack, here are five things that I will not be forgetting and if you are soon to be packing your hospital bag, please don’t forget these crucial items! They will make what is sure to be an uncomfortable stay, a little more bearable. Also this post contains affiliate links so make sure you check them out!

1. Your Pillow! Have you ever seen a hospital pillow? It’s sad really, it’s so thin and puny. Just trust me, PACK YOUR OWN. Here is my all time favorite pillow and yes it’s a cooling pillow😍

Reversible Memory Foam Cooling Pillow 

2. A Gown. I’m not really a gown person, I prefer shorts and a t shirt but there is a pretty good chance you aren’t going to want anything with a fitted waist band anywhere near your body for a while, especially the day after giving birth. And if you have a c-section, I’m sure you’d rather die than put on pants. Check out this super comfy nursing gown!

Baby Be Mine 3 In 1 Labor/delivery/Nursing Hospital Gown Maternity
3. Entertainment. Whatever it is you do in your spare time, bring it because there is a possibility that you will be laying in a bed awaiting the grand entrance of your little bundle of joy for hours on end. Then again, maybe not but it’s always better to be prepared. I had playing cards and thankfully so. I was in labor for 22 hours, 17 of which I was confined to the bed. Sudoku puzzles and word searches are also great so make sure to grab some here!

Ultimate Mind Games: With Over 400 Puzzles (Puzzle Books)
4. Toilet Paper. Okay, I know what you’re thinking but just hear me out. After giving birth you don’t want anything near the area but that doesn’t change the fact that you will still have to use the bathroom. Hospital toilet paper is like the most thin, roughest toilet paper ever and that’s definitely not what I want right after I push out a whole tiny human. I’m super picky with toilet paper so this is my brand of choice.

Charmin Ultra Soft Mega Roll Toilet Paper, 24 Count

5. Fan. I am a needy sleeper. It has to be cool, dark and I have to have noise. (And I complain about my child being a needy sleeper, she gets it honest🙄) Now, at home I sleep with a big box fan and a ceiling fan. Obviously these things are not sensible, however they do make smaller fans that would be the perfect size for a hospital room and you best believe this go around, I will take one! This fan is our favorite considering how lightweight it is!

Mainstays 20″ Box Fan, Black

These are the things I will definitely be packing on my second go around but I am always interested in know what other mamas can’t live without during child birth.

What are some things you pack in your hospital bag? Make sure to comment because I may be forgetting something important. After all, I’m currently suffering from pregnancy brain… BAD!

Can’t wait to hear from you mamas💕

The twins FINALLY have Names💙

As many of you know, my husband and I are expecting twins! We are approaching the 32 week mark and it seems as if time has flown by. My pregnancy has been filled with a ton of doctors appointments here with my regular OB, a Maternal-Fetal Medicine specialist, and a Fetal Cardiologist. We have been going to a doctors office at least once a week since October. How annoying right?

Although that’s is what’s best for these boys! They are what’s called Monochorionic-Diamniotic (Mono-Di) which means they have separate sacs but they share one placenta which puts them at high risk for TTTS. Twin-Twin Transfusion Syndrome is when one twin takes more nutrients than the other and causes uneven growth. Luckily, the boys have been within 1% of each other and have weighed in at almost exactly the same every two weeks! They are growing great and we are hoping to have a normal delivery here with our regular OB (because Dr. Borders is simply the bomb).

Everything with this pregnancy is going great except for the fact that we have struggled to settle on names for these two stinkers. However, I think we can finally say that we have decided! We like unique names and we want all our babies to have special, uncommon names so with that being said….

In approximately 4 (ish) weeks we will welcome MEMPHIS and NASHVILLE Smith!

We haven’t fully decided on middle names because choosing first names has been nothing short of agonizing, (I really don’t know why we struggled so much this time) but at least we will be able to call them by name instead of Baby A and Baby B. Which is simply a relief! A huge weight lifted💙

We are still on the lookout for middle names so comment or email us with your suggestions💙 We would love to hear what you would pair with these two unique names!

Baby Shower Shenanigans

So from the moment we were told that we were having twins I haven’t been able to think about much more than just that. We are having TWO babies at ONE time. We would need doubles of a lot of things and we had just recovered from having our first baby!

Just kidding, but seriously, how are we going to afford TWO at one time? I just hoped and prayed that everything we needed would just fall out of the sky. HaHa!

Well it definitely didn’t just fall into our laps but we have been extremely blessed with amazing family and friends who recently showered our little family with tons of gifts for the boys! We are so grateful for all the things we received and we absolutely cannot wait to use everything when the boys arrive.

Clothes, Bath supplies, changing pads, blankets, car mirrors, boppies, tons of diapers and wipes, and MUCH more! We could never thank everyone enough. I understand that it’s flu season and there are so many things that are pulling people in a thousand different directions but I wanted to say a very special thank you to everyone who took the time out of their busy schedules to spend a little time with us.

Here are a few pictures of the shower and some of the great things we got!

Waiting on Reagan

Dear whoever will listen to me whine,

So they say the last few weeks of pregnancy last forever… all I have to say is AMEN! 

I’m 37 weeks as of today and I have been at a 1 for 6 weeks now. On and off contractions, back pain galore and no sleep. What a great fashion statement that is considering I work in fashion/retail and it is my job to “look cute” on a daily basis. 

They tell you things to expect when you’re pregnant and I’m thankful for my What To Expect When Expecting book but it’s been telling me since day one that my feet will swell and throughout my whole pregnancy I had no swelling whatsoever then BAM… took my shoes off at the bank one day (while I was waiting) and 20 minutes later I found myself not being able to stuff what used to be my feet back into my cute little flats. Or here’s my favorite, “get all the sleep you can because you won’t get any when the baby arrives”… what do I have to say about this? BULL! I haven’t slept in daysssss. And my husband wonders why I’m ill all the time. 

Apart from this same pity party I throw myself everyday, I’m terrific and I can’t wait to see my little girl! No seriously, I cannot wait. Considering threatening my doctor when I see her tomorrow… just kidding. But how do you think she’ll feel about a bribe? 

Sincerely,

A pregnant lady having one of those days.